Thursday, June 5, 2008

Rainy and Muggy

I woke up early this morning before my alarm, I was convinced it was Friday, so I actually reset my alarm for a later time because I don't have to get up as early on was only after I was almost asleep did I finally come to my senses. Today is only Thursday, crap. Today is the third day of rainy and muggy weather, there is a pretty good thunder storm crackin right now and we are under tornado warning. My house is pitch black and Mini is barking as usual.

As much as I love a good storm, weather like this always brings me down. I was driving Maddie to daycare this morning wondering at what price does gas have to get to when I can no longer take her. Maddie's daycare is a half hour, one way, from our house. Daycare is by my office and since I started working from home, I drive there and back twice a day. I choose to do this because I trust the people at this daycare and she has been abused in a previous daycare (arms pulled out of sockets etc.) so I am way too skittish to try someone new. Preschool starts in the fall. She does stay home at least once a week while I am working and is very good about being quiet. If it was up to her, she'd stay home everyday and watch movies and play barbies but I can't give her my full attention so I don't think that's fair for her.

Some days my job sucks the big one, up one side and down the other (can you tell its one of those days?), although I'm grateful for a job.

I'm supposed to go to a wedding next weekend with one of my best friends. He invited me to go and then met someone and after about a month, moved to Hawaii with him. Now they are both coming home for the wedding and I told him I no longer wanted to go, which he thinks is silly... I have known him for 25 years, and since my mom died, I've spent the holidays with his family (even when he's been off on his most recent love boat episode). I actually lived with his parents for a while, so no one would think twice if Maddie and I were there. However, I feel that since he asked me to go and then asked someone else, I should stay home. I don't want to go with them, and his boyfriend was rude to me when we met, spending time with those two does not appeal to me. Am I being crazy? or is this as stupid and rude as it seems? I'm crabby.

I'm feeling rainy and muggy just like the weather.


suz said...

If you are not feeling it....don't go. It could be the weather...or it could be your female intuition. you know how strong that can be.
I agree w/ you on the day care....if you have a good place, it is worth the drive.
She would get bored each day playing barbies and TV by herself...eventually anyway.
Cheer up. Friday is ALMOST here.

Smileygirl said...

That is so awful about your experience with a previous daycare. Just like Suz says, a good place is worth the drive and it's not going to be a drive you'll have to do forever.

I'm sorry about the rain and the muggy-ness. Rain and clouds always make me feel down in the dumps so maybe once the sun peeps out you'll have second thoughts about the wedding? But why was the boyfriend not nice to you? That may not be fun to be around then. Maybe he was grumpy because of the rain too...

Maggie said...

I'm not sure why the boyfriend was rude to me, kept asking when I was leaving in a very unpleasant tone...I even made sure I had little contact with my friend that night since I know how intimidating it can be when friends who have known each other for so long can be...inside jokes, shared experiences etc...